Been thinking

I think I really have some serious issues to work out. I'm not even joking about it anymore. I've been joking about it for years now, but I think this is like... the edge. I need something more than a school counsellor. It's days like this that I don't think anything exists after. I can't really explain it, but... you know. It's days like this that I almost throw up from holding everything back.

Now I'm going to go spend a night away from home and maybe think some more. I don't know. I just need a break away from all these restrictions and shit.