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Halloween Horoscope for Libra

You only like halloween if you have a special someone to share it with. You like a romantic scary evening together - no big parties or events for you. Costume suggestions: Romeo and Juliet or Batman and Catwoman Signature Halloween candy: Nerds

What's Your Halloween Horoscope?

Um... just highlight to see the text. Stupid piece of shit.

4 more days!

And... 6 hours and 15 more minutes until Rocky Horror! But it'll probably be closer to 5 hours and 45 minutes by the time I'm done this post. I've been looking forward to this since September 3rd lol. And people aren't ditching me like I thought they would!

Today was awesome. I got to miss school to go to this Career Show thing (for CALM class). I went with Nina and Carter and got lots of information - I was actually able to find a booth for animation XD. After that, we went to this place called Barbie's Shop so Carter could buy stuff. That place is hideously expensive x_x Then we went to TD Square mall, Charisma's, and Mis Chiff's Closet (Nina wanted to see it). I found the best corset ever there - black and red latex. It was 104 dollars though. So fuck. lol. Then we went down the street so I could show Carter where the Plaza is and at that same second, West was also going there to drop some stuff off. That was spookily coincidential. Is "spookily" even a word? I need to shut my brain off before I destroy the internet @_@

Killing time

Changed the title of my blog for no reason. Old one was annoying me.

So I'm quite pissed off. I thought The Nightmare Before Christmas was going to be playing in theates in 3D here, but from what I heard, they canceled it last minute because Open Season is making more money. Or something. Ask Corey. Better yet, send angry emails to Famous Players. Or mob the main office with picket signs and molotov cocktails.

Anyway, just killing time before my bus comes. Band was canceled this morning (at least I think it was...) so I got an extra hour of sleep plus lots of extra time to get ready this morning. Too much time, because I have to resort to typing about nothing in my blog. 5 more minutes.

My FireFox still won't work. I tried uninstalling it and installing it again just now and it still won't work. At least everything else is running smoothly.

Plans still on for Saturday, but it will be very impromptu as there is no movie. So like I've been saying, any ideas would be awesome. See you then

Yet more complaining

Shit. Looks like Pic-Bin.com is down, so my blog has no pictures at the moment...

Another crappy day today. At least it went by fast. It turned into winter overnight (if it's still like this by the 27th, I'm going to be REALLY pissed at earth in general), which just sucks, and I can't shake this bout of depression. Oh, by the way, this post is just a tool in procrastination since I'm supposed to be doing a position paper that's due tomorrow. But I don't have anything else to bore you with, so I guess I'll go do that. Wait! I do have something. I've been thinking about leaving band. It's always been something to look foward to and love doing, but lately it's been a huge chore. I can't stand ANYONE in the entire band (except for maybe Nina and Sarah E.), especially my own sections. Especially clarinet. Actually playing the instrument is getting harder because of my asthma, which my jr. high band teacher told me would get better because of playing clarinet. And it was for a while, but now I have to breathe after every two or three bars, and really gasp for breath at the end of a piece. So I don't know... Maybe I can get Ms. Sampson to convince me to stay. Even though there would be benefits to leaving... I could sleep an extra hour, have more free time, and have room for another class upgrade in my schedule next semester. Not to mention a lot less stress, and less money for instrument rental and band tour. And even though band tour is really fun, it also causes a lot of fights and stress. Plus this year there will be a lot less tolerable people. I'm still trying to decide. It could be another of these mood-inspired ideas like the last time I was horribly depressed and sleep deprived and had this same thought. Blehh. I'll figure it out.

Update on the CPO concert! We can get REALLY awesome seats for half price! We need to get student rush seats (early because the Halloween show sells out early sometimes) and it will only cost around 11 dollars and we get to sit by the pipe organ above the orchestra and watch them from above! Plus we can see the entire audience and their costumes. This will be sweet. So it's an open invitation - come if you want and can! I remembered the exact time and date - Saturday October 28th, at 8 PM.

Back

YES! was pretty awesome. Lots of education, motivation, nice hotel, etc. The only part that sucks was when I got sick on the second day and had to miss a few things. Still sick now, but medicine is making it possible to be out of bed. Plus TV is REALLY shitty on Saturday mornings.

Oh yeah - some stuff coming up soon-ish. October 27th is another Rocky Horror, so if anyone wants to come to that. Also on the 28th is that Spooktacular concert (Calgary Philharmonic Orchestra) followed by Rocky Horror. So if anyone wants to come to that, let me know and I'll give you details and stuff.

Going to be gone for a few days (like anyone cares)

So tomorrow me Kai and Sarah E will be leaving for YES! the Youth Environmental Summit. I get out of class early (YAY less math!!) and won't be back until Friday.

In other news, (lol) I had a job interview today at Where It's Art at Marlborough Mall. It was fairly informal - we just stood at the counter there and she asked questions off a sheet and wrote down my amswers. There was no eye contact (thank jebus -_-;) and she sounded happy when we were done. Then Carla, Amie, and me went to Sunridge mall for a bit. On the way home, I called my mom to tell her I was on my way and she told me Alicia (girl who interviewed me) had already called me back about the job. So I called her back when I got home, but she wasn't there. And I doubt she'll be calling back because the mall is now closed. Fuck. Oh well - I'll get my mom to take a message and tell me if I got the job or not.

Oh, and iTunes continues to arouse homicidal urges within me. Today, it's decided to skip repeatedly when I type. And sometimes when I just have the program open and am trying to organize a few songs. POS. The same second of audio over and over and over.

Anyway... I had one of those thoughts today that's immediately followed by the thought of "I need to blog about this..." but I forgot what it was. Which is further evidence that humans need built in computers in their brains. We could just shut off our eyes, switch to monitor view, and manipulate everything with our minds. I wonder what crazy peoples' mind computers would be like then? Probably really scary. They'd probably contribute some of the best web content. Or the most horrifying. Whichever. That wasn't the thought, by the way.

K so see you Friday. The 13th! Spooky. Or not. *shrug*

Think up your own god damn title

I tried changing the look of my computer today (desktop, skins, etc.) but it didn't work out so well. I found an awesome Trillian skin (started using Trillian again last night after remembering how much better it is than MSN), but it stopped at iTunes. How many times have I caused myself endless frustration by trying to make iTunes do what I want it to? It refuses to let me go back to version 6, and I can't skin it at all in version 7. At least the assholes fixed all the bugs. Ugh.

So I got a few hours' break from my week of bad luck when me and Nina went to the Movie Dome (saw You, Me, and Dupree), overdosed on sugar, etc. She fell asleep as soon as we got home (in my dress >_>) so I went on the computer until about 2:30 am. Then had to wake up at 5 am so Nina could call in sick to work. That was a lot of drama. At least I got to go back to sleep until 10-ish. I sort of had plans for the day, but whatever. I don't think I could've tolerated people anyway.

All day I've felt the need to have a serious conversation with someone - anyone, really - but everyone's been so distant lately that all IMs go like this:

Me: hey
Them: hi
Me: whats up?
Them: nm
Me (some time later): Anyway... hows it going?
Them: good *signs off*

And that's about it. Because of course it's completely unheard of to actually USE instant messaging software. I guess that's why I'm blogging though.

And now for something unrelated: I'm sorry I'm needy and too busy worrying about what may or may not be wrong with my mind. And don't try to say I'm not, I know it's true.

Wait... what's the purpose of this entry? Subconscious need for pity, or the need to trick myself into feeling like I'm using my time semi-productively? Okay this is getting a little too pathetic.

Been thinking

I think I really have some serious issues to work out. I'm not even joking about it anymore. I've been joking about it for years now, but I think this is like... the edge. I need something more than a school counsellor. It's days like this that I don't think anything exists after. I can't really explain it, but... you know. It's days like this that I almost throw up from holding everything back.

Now I'm going to go spend a night away from home and maybe think some more. I don't know. I just need a break away from all these restrictions and shit.

Wow, a post that isn't some stupid survey. Also a post that's not being typed in CALM class. Alert the fucking media.

So today pretty much sucked, overall. Art class was just... weird. I was really anxious and... explodey. I felt like if I didn't do SOMETHING right now, I would either explode or a time-space continuum rift would break me open and destroy our universe along with several others. So I ended up punching the table a few times out of frustration over nothing I could properly identify. Then my teacher scared the shit out of me a few times. Something about him overhearing me say "alto sax", only hearing "ultra sex" instead and saying "Sign me up for some of that!" and then again later when he snuck up behind me (I swear I didn't even hear him), yelled at me to get to work, then tried to mentally will me to draw by wiggling his fingers at me. I wanted to rearrange his intestines. Then Nina stole my headphones when I wasn't looking so she could ignore me. Then there was math. That needs no explanation. And then social with Bjorn and Amanda. JOY ON A FUCKING STICK. Wrestling wasn't so bad. it was actually really easy and I'm not tired at all from it. Probably because I left early so I could get home before 5, when Nathaniel said he was going to call. He didn't. The one thing I was looking forward to all day. All WEEK. Because I haven't seen him in over a week. Hey, can everyone do me a favor and gouge your own eyes out with a pen? That would save me a lot of trouble.

P.S - maybe the day went so badly because the first thing anyone said to me this morning was "Hi, homie". My mom. In that hideous high-pitched voice she uses for babies and pets. I didn't think I could glare so powerfully when my eyes aren't even open all the way yet.

Well that was pointless.

Just killing time while I wait for a phonecall *coughcough* >_>

How cute are you?

[ ] You are smaller than the other girls of your age.
[x] You like pink or purple.
[x] You wear skirts.
[x] You love stuffed toys.
[x] You have more than 100 stuffed animals.
[ ] Your pillow protector has flowers on it. (Harry Potter LOL)
[x] You act younger than you are.
[x] You love fairy tales.
[x] People said that you are cute

Total: 7

[ ] You are waiting for a hero. (*Sings Bonnie Tyler*)
[ ] You believe in unicorns.
[ ] You believe in fairies.
[ ] You wanna be an angel.
[ ] You believed longer than the other children in Santa Claus.
[ ] You still believe in Santa Claus.
[ ] You have a princess bed.
[ ] Your bed has a canopy.
[ ] You always dressed as princess to carnival/ Halloween.
[ ] You liked to put make up on as a child.

Total: 0

[ ] You love Hello Kitty/ Sanrio stuff.
[x] You played with dolls.
[x] You owned a doll house.
[ ] People said that you look younger than you really are. (they say I look older)
[x] You owned or own rabbits, guinea pigs or chinchillas. (Do hamsters count? I had 13 lol)
[x] You love animals.
[x] You are romantic.
[x] You love moon shine. (Not the booze, but the Moon lol)
[ ] When you get suddenly a kiss from a boy you blush.
[x] You blush when someone say he likes you.

Total: 7

[ ] You love frills and ribbons on your clothes. (Ew)
[ ] You put stuff or real flowers in your hair.
[ ] You nearly always smile.
[x] You try to make people happy.
[x] You respect your parents. (To some extent)
[x] You try to see the good in people and the world.
[x] You have been called naive.
[ ] You have a unicorn poster.
[x] You like tv shows for children.
[x] You love Disney Movies. (A few. Not the princess ones though)

Total: 6

[ ] You like books for children.
[x] You like movies with happy end.
[ ] You are kind and behave good. (meh)
[ ] You are nearly never bitchy.
[ ] You like cute shoes. (Don't really care)
[ ] You respect elders.
[x] You try to be good.
[x] You cry when someone dies.
[x] You get depressed by the evening news.
[x] You can´t watch scary movies. (Only because they're retarded. I laugh at the things that are supposed to be scary)

Total: 5

[ ] You cry too when someone cries next to you.
[x] You like books with pictures in it. (Diagrams and stuff lol)
[x] You love beautiful things.
[x] You have butterfly jewelry.
[ ] You draw flowers and butterflies in your school notebooks. [...stfu.]
[x] You love movies from the 50/60´s. [I haven't seen enough ):]
[ ] You have been to Disney Land or World.
[ ] You like amusement parks.
[ ] You have deer eyes.
[ ] When you ask your boyfriend or dad for something he always give it to you, cause you are everything for him.

Total: 4

[x] Adults like you.
[x] You love swings.
[ ] You are the eye apple of your grand parents.
[x] You like to play skipping rope.
[ ] You like little children.
[ ] You enjoy to play with little children.
[ ] You still have your sticker collection.
[ ] You still have your glitter picture collection.
[ ] You have animal earrrings.
[x] You love sweets. (CANDY XD)

Total: 4

[ ] You love decorating the christmas tree. (I usually try to avoid it)
[x] You are still curious what you will get as presents.
[ ] You wished for a ring from your boyfriend.
[ ] You love Swarowski stuff. (???)
[ ] You love everything that glitters and sparkles.
[x] You´re dreaming of a house with garden. (I like plants...)
[ ] You wanna have a white wedding dress. (NO. No wedding dress at all!)
[ ] You love weddings.
[x] You always jumps in the arms of your family/ friends when you meet them. (Most friends)
[x] You hold hands with your best friend. (When we're being really silly lmao)

Total: 4

Overall total: 37

37x2= 74%

Tune in now for some boring ramblings. YAY!

Yet another boring CALM class. So I'm going to do this instead of make a list of my goals in life. That can wait. Now, the question is... what do I want to blog about?

The RP is getting really good again. We decided to kill Zim (actually, it was all my idea lol), and now everyone's all serious and crying LOL. The scary thing is though, that the RP kinda feels - as Kai put it - coming full-circle'ey. And I really don't want that to happen unless we end this one and start a sequel right away. Maybe focusing on before Kri and Kai met. No, that would be a bad idea, since our characters would have to interact in SOME way at least. We'll figure it out. I want to start up this other RP too, the one we started with our werewolf and vampire characters. But every time we try to start another one it dies because of the main one. lol this keyboard kinda sounds like A typewriter =3

Oh, and something about religion too. This memory came to mind on my way to school this morning. When I was about 10 or younger, one of my friends made me terrified of the end of the world. Her and her brother and dad were always talking about Armageddon, Y2K, etc. And they knew it freaked me out so they did it on purpose. But anyway, one night when I was lying awake facing my bedroom window, I asked god for a sign that things would be okay. At that exact moment, the neighbor's porch light came on and their wind chimes... chimed. This was of course before I started having a mind of my own and believing in things I wanted to, so whatever, god exists because school and my family says so, blah blah blah. Now it seems silly to talk about "god" and all that shit, but back then it wasn't. Just knowing there was a higher power of some sorts up there looking out for me made me feel safe and after that, I wasn't as scared all the time. Until a few years later when I heard about some giant asteroid coming towards us. I'm so paranoid about these things... I really need to learn to let go and not worry about things I can't do anything about. I've come to be okay with that now, but what I'm saying is it's really easy to freak me out lol.

Stay tuned for something worth reading. It may be a while. A LOOONG while. Suckers xP